being a mom.....

being a mom is hard.  really hard.

of course it is wonderful.  God gifts you with these little lives, that start out so tiny and new.  little pieces of perfection He entrusts you with.

and then they won't sleep.  and they poop on you.  and throw their food on the floor, tell you no, and throw the worlds biggest tantrum in the center aisle of target.

you do everything you can to raise them right.

to teach them to love Jesus.

to be a kind, thoughtful, generous person.

to think of others more than themselves.

and then they hit their brother on the head for holding their toy.

being a mom is hard.

it is lonely.  frustrating.  you question everything you do.  feel guilty about the things you don't.

you dream big for your children... and then realize you have no control over their future.

there are days i so desperately want a break.  

and then the minute i'm away, i just want to go running back to them.

never have i loved something so much.

been so depleted.

felt so unsure.

and then i see this little face....

hear her say 'mama'

and snuggle up close.

and then this little girl makes me laugh

with her complete silliness

her gigantic hugs

and how she dances along to the Wii.

and this little boy fills my heart

with his amazing reading

and how hard he works at everything he does.

and every second is worth it.  

being a mom is hard.  

but i wouldn't change anything.

i don't think i ever really appreciated my mom until i had children of my own.

thank you, mom, for how hard you worked to raise us.

i can't imagine doing this alone.

i love our relationship.

it may look different than other mothers & daughters, but that's okay with me.

i love that we can talk about anything.

be honest.

you support me, love me, and encourage me.

you are one of my biggest fans.

you are thoughtful, generous, and kind.

and a great gramma.

thank you for teaching me how to be a mom.

happy mothers day to all the moms out there.

and thank you to all the moms in my life who have loved me, inspired me, and encouraged me.

i'm so glad i don't have to do this mom thing all on my own.

ps... this may seem a day late, but since we work on sundays, the bachmans are celebrating on monday :)