limbo

last march 

i waited in line for 8 hours

to get jackson into AM kindergarten at woods.

we were all set to go.

we'd met with his new team.

his IEP was set.

his friends were in his class.

today was going to be jackson's first day of kindergarten.

i would be getting him dressed right now.

taking his picture.

packing up his backpack.

instead, i'm sitting in a living room

(missing a loveseat)

full of boxes and empty walls.

i'm so ready to move.

it feels like we're living in limbo right now.

it's like life has moved on here.

(as it should!)

school starts.  ministry moves on.  work continues.

but we are still here.

we haven't started our new lives.

our new adventure.

so we're not really part of what is happening here.

and not part of what is happening there.

limbo.

it's a strange feeling.

we have been overwhelmed with the love and support from people on both ends of this move.

it has little to do with the people,

and more with the situation.

i'm ready to be a part of life again.

to participate in what is happening around me.

my heart is sad for jackson this morning.

i'm grieving the kindergarten experience that we had worked so hard to make perfect for him.

but i trust fully 

that jesus has an even better kindergarten experience 

waiting for him on september 8th.

the right school.

the perfect teacher.

and some nice little friends.

we are ready.