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right now, time and i are in a fight.
i feel like every time i blink, i open my eyes and it's a month later.
i mean, really.... november already?
how is that possible?
life feels like it is just swirling past me,
a list of un-checked to-dos and things i wish i could have done.
desperately trying to savor the moments with my children,
and yet i frequently end up cleaning instead of cuddling.
yup.
i don't like time much.
today, especially, i feel it.
because just yesterday,
my life looked like this:
a brand-new baby girl in my arms,
tiny(ish) and helpless.
her entire life ahead of her. and me.
(i had to post this picture. seriously. do you see the rolls that little girl came out with?
she is going to hate me someday for that one ;)
but today, i woke up to this:
five candles on her cake.
a big girl before me.
time... where have you gone?
that's not to say i want to go back...
i have five years of precious memories with this little girl,
and i absolutely adore who she is today.
but i sure wish i could slow things down.
freeze time for just a bit so i can take in every minute.
because this is one special little lady.
isabella kristan,
you are my little firework.
you shine and sparkle, dazzling everyone who meets you.
you absolutely light up my life.
you love dresses- especially ones that twirl. the color pink. your brother and sister. macaroni and cheese. drawing (which you have gotten so good at this year!). your scooter. anything that sparkles. roly-poly bugs. picking flowers. sugar, sugar and more sugar. snuggles. bubble baths. building sand castles. helping me cook. doc mcstuffins. disneyland. soft things. sticks. your 'kitty' boots. swimming. your long, 'rapunzel' hair. being in charge. the ipad. my little pony. babies. getting dirty. decorating. snacks.
like a firework, you can also be, well, explosive.
you live life with passion.
when you don't like something, you REALLY don't like it.
such as:
anything tight. seatbelt buckles. jackson calling you 'isabelly'. getting out of the bath. vegetables. pants. getting in trouble. sharing. having your nails cut. shots. going potty. the dark. being told no. and sometimes being told yes. cleaning up. being confined. going to bed.
you are a lover of all animals.
if you see a dog, you MUST pet it.
this year you got your first pet that was all your own...
a hamster, and you loved her dearly.
(sadly... cupcake the hamster died,
and her sucessor, cotton candy, is now missing in our house somewhere.)
two months ago,
you started school for the first time.
we are beyond proud of you-
you can already write all your letters and your numbers 1-10.
you are learning how to be a good friend and work hard.
it seems as though everyday you learn something new.
i love having discussions with you as you explore new vocabulary -
especially coming up with a word to describe your day other than 'good'.
you LOVE princesses. right now your favorite is merida from brave.
you love playing dress-up but get really frustrated when the dresses are scratchy.
being a princess is hard.
lately, i've been looking at you and just marveling.
you are a person.
no longer a toddler.
but a little girl,
full of thoughts, ideas, and opinions.
you are compassionate and kind.
funny and exuberant.
shy in new situations.
intelligent and intuitive.
strong and independent.
creative and competitive.
you are full of questions about life,
and you want to make the most of every minute.
you challenge me.
frustrate me.
encourage me.
motivate me.
day by day,
i can see more of the woman God is forming you to be.
being your mommy isn't always easy, but it's always good.
i wouldn't take back a single moment with you,
and i love you beyond explanation.
exactly the way you are.
so time... just back up a bit, okay?
i don't want to rush past this.
because just yesterday,
and now...
a whole handful of fingers held up.
five.
5.
yep. five perfect, precious years.
keep shining brightly, little firework,
.....filling my life with oohs and aahs.
That was a beautiful post! She is adorable : )
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