shara got her groove back

man, that was rough.

january was not super fun.

you could probably tell that from my sad, pathetic posts.

sickness, dieting, frustrating circumstances- 

all things combined to make one grumpy girl.

i hated feeling that way.

i so desperately wanted to shake the funk.

wanted to be joyful, enjoy life, smile more.

but i just felt like i was drowning and could not get out.

i'd wake up and say 'this is going to be a great day!' 

and an hour later be totally crying.  over nothing.  so lame.

i was really fun to be around.

(obvious sarcasm)

my husband is a kind, sweet, patient man.

i did a lot of praying in january.

as always- God is faithful to speak to my heart.

i'm working through what it is i need to learn in these circumstances,

and what it is to be joyful even when your heart (and body) is sad.

i went to bed sunday night, praying that the funk would end.

i wanted to smile again.  love my children.  enjoy all He has blessed me with.

i know some sweet friends were praying for me too, 

encouraging me through this rough patch.

i think the funk is over.

the last few days have been great.

not to say there aren't things that have been hard or frustrating come up

(hello- i have 3 little kids!)

but how my head and heart respond feel so much better.

so much more me.

thank you, Jesus.

nurture started back up today

and i was SO glad to be sitting around a table with some of my favorite women.

i heart nurture.

the cleanse ends today.

i'm pretty happy about that, too.

i'm ready to eat paleo, work out consistently, and just be healthy.

from now on- good lifestyle habits vs crazy (unsuccessful) diets.

goodbye cleanse- you will not be missed.

we finally found a gym to join here that doesn't cost the same amount as our rent.

(seriously.  there are gyms here that charge $145/person.  excuse me?  are you working out FOR me?  you know i still have to come here and exercise right?  ca-razy sauce people.)

i'm so excited to be able to have some quiet mommy time a few days a week,

getting healthy while my kids play in the kid gym (which they love!).

and the thought of weekly zumba classes sets my heart aflutter.

i've been able to have some friend time, which has been lovely.

i think all that in-house-sickness made me desperate for friend interaction,

especially after feeling so surrounded by people i love during christmas.

i'm so grateful for the friends in fresno who continue to love me, pursue me, and encourage me.

and for my new friends here that make me feel like we've been friends for years.

God has been so good to me.

so peeps- i think i'm back.

not perfect, but me.

shara bachman.

ready to enjoy 2012.

(minus january.  let us never speak of that again)