she's got the funk

january is the worst month.

december is full of twinkly lights, friends & cookies.

it's christmas carols, parties & hope.

and then comes january.

january with houses that feel empty after the christmas decorations are down.

january with healthy eating and regular exercise.

january with resolutions that are broken before the month is over.

january always puts me in a funk.

i haven't blogged much this month because, well-

there hasn't been a whole lot of great stuff to say.

every year, jeff & i get halfway through january and say

"man, i hope this isn't how the rest of the year is going to be."

usually- things look brighter come february.

this january has not been easy.

financial hits, family issues, and sickness are taking their toll.

throw in the cleanse and i'm in full grumpzilla mode.

i'm 2 weeks into the cleanse.  i had lost 4 pounds.

but somehow... i gained them all back.

and i have not cheated.  not once.

i even had to make cookies for one of jeff's meetings, and i didn't eat a single chocolate chip.

but no weight loss.

the first 4-5 days of the cleanse left me with migraines as my body detoxed from all the caffeine, sugar & other yuckies in my body.

i was finally starting to feel better and then....

i got strep throat.

i used to roll my eyes when people complained about sore throats.

no longer.  this is sheer pain & misery i wouldn't wish on anyone.

throw in 3 restless kids & a good case of mommy guilt over their movie-watching while i try to recover...

not helping the funk.

so i've been basically stuck inside with kids for weeks.

unable to really hang out with anyone.

feeling lonely and sorry for myself.

not a pretty combination.

fairly pathetic, in fact.

january- i'm so over you.

i'm ready to be back to myself.

ready to see the outside world again.

ready to actually eat my meals rather than drink them.

so forgive me if i don't blog until the funk is gone.

i figure you, my sweet readers, only deserve one sad, mopey blog every few months, right?

c'mon february.

i need some sunshine.