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six years ago i became a mommy.
six years ago i held my newborn son in my arms.
stared at every precious part of him.
felt love in my heart like i'd never known before.
six years ago my life changed forever
when my first child,
jackson orian bachman,
was born.
these past six years have been an incredible journey.
no longer a little baby,
this boy has my heart in a way i cannot put into words.
from the minute we found out we were pregnant,
we had so many dreams,
so many hopes for what his future would hold.
very little of jackson's story has been what we expected or dreamed.
but he is more than i could have ever hoped for.
though only six years old today,
he teaches me so much
about facing my fears, slowing down, and experiencing true joy.
in many ways,
this past year has been a hard one for jackson.
for a child that doesn't do well with change,
his entire world has been turned upside-down.
there have been a lot of tears,
a lot of things he doesn't understand,
but through it all he is brave and strong.
a new town,
a new home,
starting kindergarten,
missing friends & family...
it all has taken it's toll on our little boy.
there are many days my heart breaks for him as i watch him struggle,
feeling completely inadequate to 'fix' his hurts.
yet even when life is hard,
he always manages to find his smile.
to try again the next day.
life may not be easy for jackson.
he frequently struggles to effectively communicate.
his peers oftentimes do not relate to him.
there are many experiences that are overwhelming.
but when this little boy starts laughing...
any cares you have are quickly forgotten.
there is nothing sweeter than the sound of his little belly laugh.
jackson loves reading. especially collections or anthologies of stories.
he just got his first chapter books and is pretty excited about them.
every time he reads aloud, i am in awe of his fluency and inflection.
he is working so hard at school.
he is beginning to add numbers together.
write 2-3 sentences at a time, sounding out each of the words.
practicing his penmanship
(which is not his strongest area ;)
moving to orange county has allowed him to experience so many things he loves.
he could spend hours playing in the ocean,
jumping over the waves,
and chasing the birds.
(jackson and 'flynn ryder' at disneyland, showing off their 'smolders')
he loves disneyland.
almost every morning he asks if we can go that day.
but he only wants to ride 'the slow rides... not the fast pass rides!'
he promises he'll ride them when he's 7... we'll see!
he loves parking in the 'parking schedule' (structure),
and riding the 'trom'
(the tram- which he can recite the entire speech the driver gives at the beginning and end of the ride!)
and it is imperative to get at least 3 maps every time we go so he can plan our route.
having always loved disney,
it makes my heart so happy to watch him experience such joy every time we go.
he loves CARS. maps. apples. getting the mail. his kitty, medori. wearing flip flops (with the strap between his second & third toe... so weird). any sort of computer/iPad/iPhone/V-Reader.... if it has an 'on' button, he loves it. pancakes. singing. board games. shirts without buttons. swimming. riding his bike. swinging. donuts with daddy. chipotle chips & guacamole. the brown building off the 55 freeway. the hangars at the district. having his back scratched. all music. his gray pants. agent p jammies. m&ms. magazines. texting his name to people. fountains. the color brown. eating meals 'not at home'. the wii. christmas lights.
he adores the show 'phineus & ferb' and his stuffed platypus, perry.
perry sleeps with him every night and goes almost everywhere with us.
he often is 'protecting our car'.
he loves instruments, especially the drums.
nothing makes him happier than getting to play on BIG drums.
he does NOT like change. yogurt. busy rooms. mashed or blended foods. fast rides. the unknown. arts & crafts. having his teeth brushed. bananas. baths. loud noises, especially sirens. smells. 3-D movies (and he REALLY hates 4-D movies). other people crying. having his nails cut. bubbles. anything new. the dentist. writing. being teased. waiting.
jackson is an incredible, unique little boy.
i do not know what his future holds,
but i trust god has big things in store for him.
my life is forever changed because i get to be his mommy.
i am not ready for him to be a big boy.
to lose his teeth.
to start calling me 'mom' instead of 'mommy'.
six seems so much older than five.
so i am trying to appreciate and hold on tight to every sweet second of his life.
because every moment with this boy is precious.
in jackson,
i see a daily reminder to me of god's grace.
his provision.
jackson reminds me that god's plan is so much greater than my own.
to trust him,
because he has good things for me.
happy sixth birthday, jackson orian.
i love you to the moon and back, sweet boy.
Happy Birthday Jackson! You are incredibly special to so many people. :)
ReplyDelete-Corrine