known

i've never been great at meeting people.

i never know what to say, how much to share.

i'm not super at small talk.

i'm much better once i know someone,

when we can really talk.

we are meeting a lot of great people.

everyone has been so kind, welcoming, and warm.

i've been able to have some play dates and even go to a (unbelievably amazing) birthday party.

i really like everyone i've met.

and i'm sure some of these women will end up becoming my friends.

but right now...

everyone i'm meeting is new.

no one knows me.

who i am....

my past,

my dreams,

my hurts,

my fears,

my loves,

my pet peeves....

no one knows shara bachman here.

i still feel like 

the lady who picks up jackson,

the high school pastor's wife,

the new mom that lives on stratford.

jeff has been working a lot, 

including several nights a week.

i am desperately trying to keep a positive attitude.

be happy.

enjoy all the good things around me.

today i hit a wall.

all i wanted was to have a friend sitting on my couch.

someone who knows me.

one of my friends that has been there, done that.

someone who has walked through life with me,

someone i didn't have to worry about saying the wrong thing in front of.

someone comfortable.

i know eventually i will have that here.

just not yet.

to all my friends back home...

i love you and miss you.

i wish you were here.

to all my new friends here...

 i look forward to the day when you know me.

always the optimist, my hubby posted a great post this morning you can read here....

on another note... these came in the mail today.  

good thing... i really needed a smile....

can't wait to put these on baby girl's feet tomorrow.