poker faces, second days, and happy hearts

i will never play poker.

i don't have the face for it.

i can't hide my emotions.

it's something i have always disliked about myself.

they sit there on my face, for the world to see.

or in this case, on my blog.

last week was bumpy.

it was jeff's first full week at work.

jackson's first few days of kindergarten.

i let my feelings show, both on my face and my blog.

sorry about that.

one thing you can always count on with me is honesty.

i'll tell you how it is.

that may or may not be a good thing.

sometimes i can come across a little raw.

especially when i haven't really processed my emotion.

lucky for you, you got 2 raw, honest blogs in one week!

sometimes i don't know how honest i can be here.

how much do you REALLY want to know? 

do you want to just see my adorable kids and hear about our adventures?

do you want to hear how life is hard but God is good?

do you like hearing what's going on inside my head, even when it isn't pretty?

living so far away from most of my friends and family, 

i have been getting asked the same questions a lot.

(which is wonderful.  i have felt SO loved and supported by all my fresnans.  thank you!!!)

sometimes it feels easier to answer the question one time in my blog.

so you wanted to know how i'm doing, or how jackson's 1st day was...

i may have been a little too honest for the whole world to see.

i'm working on it.

i promise to have at least one full week of shiny, happy blogs :)

and if i get a little too, well, honest....

let me know.

i can take it.

thank you to everyone who sent me sweet notes this past week,

even people i have never met.

i'm happy to tell you that jackson's 2nd day of school went much better.

we sent an email to his teacher on thursday night explaining his special little personality

and what would help him be successful in these first few weeks.

we are hopeful for a great year and a good relationship with his teacher.

we plan on giving everyone a week or two to see how things go before deciding if we need to do anything further.  

(i'd also love to clarify that i did not mean to speak ill of his teacher, the school, or anyone in particular, 

more just the situation itself, and how jackson reacted to it)

i think he's going to do GREAT this year.

and we are going to support, advocate for, and love him every step of the day

while trying to also be a light for Christ in the public schools.

after a rough few days,

i've found my happy heart.

we had a super fun dinner with a new family on friday night,

an awesome day with my cousins in san diego (blog coming soon!)

and a great morning at church.

i feel refreshed

and excited to be where God has me.

and i promise to have a happy heart.....

for at least a week ;)